Picture time!

Check out some random pics at my Xanga!
(translation: look at these nice pictures on my other website)
http://www.xanga.com/home.aspx?user=nynkevanfoeken

Lists!

I was reading Matt's blog and I got inspired to put some lists on my blog as well.

Five books I started reading but haven't finished (yet):
-Mere Christianity by C.S. Lewis
-The Horse And His Boy by C.S. Lewis
-The Lovely Bones by Alice Sebold
-Love and Freindship by Jane Austen
-Wuthering Heights by Emily Bronte

Ten countries I want to visit:
-USA
-Mexico
-Italy
-Sweden
-India
-Russia
-Australia
-China
-Ireland
-Portugal
(and Poland)

Five favorite things to buy when I go shopping:
-Books
-CD's
-DVD's
-Cosmetics (make-up, perfume)
-Shoes

Five movies I could watch over, and over, and over...
-Little Women
-Pride and Prejudice
-The Lord of the Rings trilogy
-How To Loose A Guy In Ten Days (I'm not kidding!)
-Bridget Jones's Diary

Ten random things about me:
-I like to eat sweets in even numbers
-I would like to learn to speak Italian, Russian and Romanian (and Polish)
-I had over 30 crushes in my life
-I am proud to be half German
-I'm allergic to most pets (except dogs)
-I smoked about ten cigarettes in my life
-I've never been kissed
-Or asked out on a date
-I'm so sad!!!
-I love Magda, my Polish friend

Praise the Lord!!!

Praise the Lord, he is so good!
I was having some trouble with money lately, the trouble being not having enough of it!
I had to pay some bills and the reason I couldn't pay them was because I spent money on other stuff that I didn't really need. I felt kind of stupid and guilty about this.
So, I decided to pray and I asked God to help me to be more responsible with money.
And God is so good! He really helped me out! Me parents sent me some money and today I received my tax refund, and it's even more than I thought it would be. And I also receive pocket money today!
The weird thing is, I don't even feel like shopping. Normally I would go out and spend, spend, spend!
God is really teaching me and blessing me!!!

Some other stuff

By the way, I hope you realize that my worries about loneliness were just temporary! It's not like I was depressed for days! I'm actually doing really well!

I made a lot of pictures lately, so I will soon put some of them on my Xanga site!

Amsterdam rules!

I spent some great days in the city! There is so much to see and to do here. And the weather was great. Everything is nicer when the sun shines!
Yesterday I went to see a french movie at the Filmmuseum. I went together with Laurissa and Leticia. The movie had dutch subtitles. That was good, cause my french isn't that great. I guess it was a little harder for Laurissa and Leticia because they don't speak dutch. The acting in the movie was very dramatic, I loved it!
I should really do some more exploring in Amsterdam. My sister keeps telling me to see stuff and to go places, and I never do. But this saturday we're going to the Prinsengrachtconcert! I'm looking forward to it!

Happiness, loneliness and other thoughts.

I thought about happiness today, and how I never seem to feel completely happy. And I was just thinking about what things would make me happy.
Ofcourse I have very good days when I feel very good and happy and satisfied with the way things are going, but on other days I just feel down and start to worry about where these feelings come from and what I can do to prevent them!
I'm happy to live here in Amsterdam and work in the Shelter. I love it! But I'm a little scared of the time after this. I'm afraid I'll have to go back to a boring office job and face everyday life. It makes me think about how to plan my future. I don't know how to do it!
If, for example, I was dating someone and we were planning on getting married, then I would know what the future would probably be like. We would plan the wedding, find a nice place to live, both find jobs, and enjoy life together. But, being alone, I'm not looking forward at all to finding a job and a place to live. What's the fun in living alone? Okay, maybe living alone is not so bad, but how do I prevent myself from becoming lonely?
I guess that's what I'm trying to do. Preventing myself from becoming lonely.
Here in the Shelter it's easy, there's people everywhere! But what about Friesland? My best friends don't live there. They live in other parts of the Netherlands or outside of the Netherlands! Who am I gonna hang out with?
I thought about doing a DTS next year, but I realize that doing a DTS would also be another way for me to prevent being lonely, and that's ofcourse not a good reason to do it.
I know this entry is maybe a bit heavy and not really fun to read, but this has been on my mind and I would like to hear other peoples thoughts about it.

Let's Dance!

Yesterday evening we had a Samba and Salsa night at the Shelter Jordan! It was a lot of fun. I really enjoyed dancing! I don't dance a lot here, except when I'm alone in my room.
Dancing must be one of the things I love to do most, but it's one of the things I hardly ever do. How come? Well, I think some of the reasons (at this moment) are:

Not knowing any dancing schools in Amsterdam
Not having any time to take classes
Not having any money to pay for them
Not having anyone to go with (or dance with, you need a partner for stuff like ballroomdancing)
Not being able to finish a course of a year because I'll probably move back to Friesland in five months.
Not having the right clothes to wear
Etc, etc.

I guess I could make it work out if I really wanted to. Maybe I'm just a little scared to actually go through with this.

But I should, because I LOVE DANCING!