Doing better

Okay, everyone who knows me a bit also knows that my depressions are very temporary. They usually last a few hours. So if you were worried after reading my last post, don't be!
I'm doing a lot better already.
And the sun is out today! Praise God for spring!
I once told a friend that if I weren't a christian I would be a sun worshipper!

Anxiety

I think I had a bit of an anxiety attack today. I already woke up not feeling too well.
This week we're getting more trainings at work. It's so much information and it just doesn't fit into my head because it's too full with my own stuff.
During the afternoon I started worrying about all kinds of things. About my current job that I don't really like, how tired I am, that I still have to find a new place to live, what to do with my life, how I will become happy, how I should spend my free time, my ambitions, my hobbies, my money. Everything! I got really warm and sweaty and I almost started crying in the classroom! This is horrible. I think I need some counselling.
And what is it about the Shelter that makes life afterwards so hard for everyone?

Honestly!

Allright, I guess it's time for some honesty!
People have been asking me how I'm doing and how my job is going. And I ususally answer: I'm allright, the job is good!
But actually I'm not doing that well and my job's not that much fun either. And as soon as I wrote this last sentence I felt what I always feel: worried that other people might worry about me. And guilty for complaining. That's why I never answer these questions honestly (bad christian!!).
Anyway, I've been doing some soul searching lately. Trying to figure out what I wanna do with my future. Trying to find out what will truly make me happy. You would think you know what you want. But you don't! You have to work hard to figure it out!
Anyway, in a spontaneous moment of craziness maybe, I filled in an online job applictaion form for Bagels and Beans. I had a busy day at work and at this moment anything sounds better than answering tons of phonecalls ( I hate phones, remember). But after I sent the application form, the following line appeared on the website:

Thank you for being interested in working for Bagels & Beans. In the meantime, why don't you think about this quote by famous philosopher Aristotle who lived between 384 and 322 B.C.:
"All paid jobs absorb and degrade the mind".

Does that mean it's impossible to find a truly fulfilling job?

Still, I think it would be cool to work for a company that puts this kind of quote on their website!

No pretending that work is fun!

Ha, ha, ha :)