Lame

Yesterday I was so proud of my profound little poem. Now I think it's kinda lame.
Even though Laurissa thinks it's 'mooi'. :)

I let...

I lie in the grass,
and I let the smell of spring surround me.
I stare at the sun,
and I let its warmth caress my face.
I dangle my feet in a cool brook,
and I let the water make my toes tingle.
I pick a wild flower,
and I let its delicacy amaze me.

I walk in the wind,
and I let its coldness depress me.
I read the paper,
and I let the articles frustrate me.
I watch the news,
and I let the images scare me.
I sit on the couch,
and I let the loneliness hurt me.

I go to the Lord,
and I let Him comfort me.

This week

I decided this week would be the week in which I get rid of things that bother me, and that I would solve problems, and make things better for myself.

It's not easy. It takes a lot of courage. Now I just have to wait for the results.

My 3rd post for today, I guess I was bored...funny cartoon!

German

I just had a German passenger on the phone. And I handled the whole call in German. I'm pretty proud of myself.

Gern geschehen!

(right?)

Busy

Lord, work is flipping (can I say that?) busy! But I had a talk with my supervisor and I might soon start working 4 days instead of 5! I already feel more relaxed.
But today I started working 8 hours again instead of 6 and it's looooong. So I have to get used to that again.
But I'm feeling good. Tired, but good.

There and back again

If anyone recognizes the title of this post, "There and back again", let me know!

Anyway, I went to Krakow, and now I'm back again, already. It was waaayyyy too short!
It was a lot of fun hanging out with Magda. We talked a lot! We also had a lot of fun writing postcards to our friends, which I guess is everyone who reads this.
So, look forward to some cool cards. Well, at least Magda and I think they're cool.
I wish I could post some pictures on my blog, but I have no internet at home, so I guess that will have to wait...

Now I'm back at work and it is boring and stressful at the same time. So no fun. But what can you do? Tomorrow I have to work as well. On a sunday! I really hate that.

Isn't it weird how life can be hard and wonderful at the same time? Good thing God is with us always. No matter how we feel. Happy or sad. And that is a great comfort!

Yeah, my shift is over. I think I'm going to take a walk in Vondelpark. That has been one of my favourite things to do lately.

Later! :)

Men (and women): Read This!

I'm reading "Captivating" from John and Stasi Eldredge. Again. I wrote something about it before, but it's just such a good book. I wanted to share this passage with you:

John is talking about how he didn't really want to co-write a book about the "mystery of a woman's soul" because he was scared to delve into that part of a woman's life. So he writes this:

I knew it would require me to enter into the world of women - and into my woman's world - in a far deeper way than daily life requires of me. To do any sort of justice to a book for women would require me to go deeper, listen even more carefully, study, delve into the mystery (okay-bloody mess) of a woman' s soul. Part of me just didn't want to go there. I had what felt like an allergic reaction. Pull back. Withdraw.
I was keenly aware of this going on inside me, and I felt like a jerk. But I also knew enough about myself and about the battle for a woman's heart that I needed to explore this ambivalence. What is this thing in me - and in most men - that just doesn't want to go deep into a woman's world? You are too much. Too hard. It's too much work. Men are simpler. Easier.
And isn't that just the message you've lived with all your life as a woman? "You are too much, and not enough. You're just not worth the effort." (And why is it such an effort? There must be something wrong with you.)
Now, part of a man's fundamental reluctance to truly dive into the world of a woman comes from a man's deepest fear, failure. Oh, he may joke about "the differences of men and women." Mars and Venus and all that. But the truth is, he is afraid. He fears that having delved into his woman's world, he won't have what it takes to help her there. That is his sin. That is his cowardice. And because of her shame, most of the time a man gets away with it. Most marriages (and long-term dating relationships) reach this sort of unspoken settlement. "I'm not coming any closer. This is as far as I'm willing to go. But, I won't leave, and that ought to make you happy." So there is this sort of detente, a cordial agreement to live only so close.
The effect is that most women feel alone. Some of this is simply selfishness on the part ofmen. Lord knows men are selfish and self-centered. When Eve was first assaulted, Adam didn't do jack squat. Men sin through violence and through passivity. It's that plain and simple...and ugly.

Okay, this was not meant as an attack on men! I just thought it was very interesting and helpful. If you want to learn more about women, read "Captivating". If you want to learn more abot men (who doesn't?) read "Wild at Heart" by Jon Eldredge.

Just an idea...

It's been a while...

Finally an update on my blog!
Well, what can I say. I've been back at work and it's alright. It's not that much fun, but it's work. It gives me money, so I can live in Amsterdam.
Amsterdam is gorgeous when the sun shines. Last week I decided to walk all the way through Vondelpark, from one end to the other. I thought it would take me a really long time, but it only took me about half an hour. It was soooo good. Just walking, enjoying the sunshine, watching the people, kids and dogs. So nice!
And I've been sitting on my tiny balcony sunbathing. I love the sun!
One of my housemates is moving out in October and it's almost certain I can move into her room then. But I have to leave the room I have now in about six weeks. So I needed a place to stay from the end of June until the end of September. And I found one! With a little help of some really cool people! I can move into the same building where Nienke from the headoffice lives. Every other week I have smallgroup at her place too, so that would be perfect.
Today I have training again at my job. I had to decode this three letter code of an airport: BFD.
It's Bradford, Pennsylvania! So I had to think about Laurissa! Nice.
Next week I'll see Magda, can't wait!
Lately I had this longing to become a elimentary school teacher. Not sure why. Maybe I should find some info about part-time education.
I'm also trying to figure out what I wanna do for a job. So it would really help me if you can tell me what kind of job you think would really suit me.
Well, that's my update for now!